This is going to be a little bit of a rant but so be it.
I was walking my dog today when I pasted a lady and a little boy. As I approached to walk by them I felt a sudden hit of anxiety as I had no idea what to do, where should I look? What should I do? I completely freaked out from just walking by someone. So what happened? Not much, the lady smiled at me and I returned the smile, tight lipped and eyes averted to the ground. It was then that I had a sudden realisation;
People, especially those from older generations, tend to go on about how youths “these days” are rude and ungrateful. Yes this may be true but what I am writing about isn’t in the defence for those who are actually rude and ungrateful but for those who do experience this anxiety. I can’t give an exact duration of how long I have suffered from anxiety and depression, I went through an extremely hard time for myself and although I am now “better”, both of these demons are constantly in the background of my life, lurking and waiting in the depth of my being. Back to my point of this post though, it was once I walked past the lady with my eyes on the ground that I realised that this may of come off as rude. And that if I were my mum, I would of smiled and said hello, even asked how she was. This may sound simple, and yes as I write it down it is. But for me this simple tasking of saying hello and asking how one is isn’t simple. Its hard and its tough. The possible rejection outweighs all possible benefits – benefits of saying hello and how are you, it sounds ridiculous! And it is ridiculous, I realise this but it is how it is.
So when I hear people scoffing at how rude youth can be it does upset me because not everyone is straight up rude. Some people have demons that they have to face every day, every hour and every minute. As much as I would’ve of liked to of casually greeted that lady, I couldn’t bring myself to. Yes some people are just rude, that is who they are, but others are shy and unsure of themselves.
I realise that this post is pretty much just talking about greeting a stranger and asking how they are which is just silly but today when this happened I just wanted to write about it and allow myself to justify my actions (kinda).
So to the lady that I passed today with the little boy, I know this is a little bit too late, but I want you to know I am not a rude person, I wanted very much to say something so “hello, how are you? I hope you’re enjoying your walk in the sunshine”
Happy Friday everyone! I have decided to try and blog every Friday so this is going to be my first official Friday post, yippee!
Recently I came across the site Design Darling (the boutique) which is full of gorgeous items to decorate and accessorise your home. I have become obsessed with finding home decor and adding them to my list of things to purchase once I move out of home. And Design Darling will be the first place I visit!!! I have always loved simple yet beautiful things, which is what the site sells. My first purchases will be the pink and gold stationary which you can put your initials on which makes me feel a little la de da! As well as the white coasters with the gold dots (I have fallen in love with gold!), the seahorse pillow which I plan on putting in a non existing room with white walls (my room at the moment is green and still reflects my teenage years!). And of course the gold and turquoise cuff because a girl has to feed her jewellery obsession! Everything about the site I love, everything is simple yet pretty are there are plenty of gold establishments to fore fill my golden needs. I thought these matches were super cute and I can imagine myself using the white tray to serve my girl friends yummy snacks and drinks on and use to house flowers. But not at the moment, but hopefully son I will be able to buy all the home decor my heart desires! I suggest anyone who has any interest in super cute home decor and accessories to check out this site! I don’t know if I able to use the picture as a click through link so I will just include the link below 🙂
Enjoy your weekend, I will be at work all day
So I guess this is offically my first post. I has taken me a while to decide what I should dedicate my first post to, but then when I thought about it, no one is really going to read it (yet) so it doesn’t really matter. I was going to blog about an awesome home decor site that I recently found but decided that I should start my telling my story.
I love to travel, I love fashion, I love interior design, I love creating things and as immature as it sounds, I love love love pretty things! last year I travelled to London on exchange with my university and it was the best and worst experience of my life. Would I do it again? Yes, without hesitation. I loved it and the life I lived while I was there. I miss it terribly now that I am back home in Australia and as much as I want to go back, I know it will never be the same as to when I was there in 2013. I say it was the best/worst experience of my life because while so amazing things happened to me and I meet so awesome people who I will never forget, I also had some terrible experiences that still effect me today. This wasn’t because of London the place itself, it was due to me getting to know myself really well and a person helping me get to know myself. I wish I was at the stage where I could share this story, but I’m really not ready to share that with everyone yet. I guess in a way that is my story, I am quite reserved and I won’t share my story until I am able to say I am positively okay with it. The reason for this blog is I want to be able to help and inspire others who have been in a similar situation as myself. I also want to share with the world and myself all things I find pretty and kind of use this blog as a place for me to store all the awesome finds I find. I hope one day that I am able to share my story with you all, but for now I can’t.